Caleb and "Why"

Having children and not having children... They can both be very touchy subjects when it comes to the "why" of it all. Whether it be a mom who is continuously popping out kid after kid, or the woman that so desires children and has not been able to make it work. Onlookers always wonder, "why?"

My "why" began to form when I was 24 weeks pregnant with Caleb. The first 23 weeks of my pregnancy were normal, I mean sure I was so sick everyday, every second, but that's normal right? :) At my 24 week check-up my Doctor informed me that she could not find my cervix and rushed me to the hospital. Long story short they discovered that I had 2 uteruses... Yes you saw that right... 2 uteruses! ( my mom says I had a twin and ate her in the womb..ha) anyways because of the double uterus I also have 2 cervix's, which somehow got all messed up and tangled throughout the pregnancy. Needless to say I was watched very closely for the next few months and put on bed rest, not fun! I was able to make it all the way to week 32 before any other major complications arose. At week 32 I went back into the hospital and they were able to hold me off for 2 more weeks. At 34 weeks my contractions started to get very painful and close together so they decided to do an emergency C-section. Because of my double uterus and the twisting of my 2 cervix's, when my doctor made the incision on my stomach, she also completely severed one of my cervix's. This sent the team of doctors into a frenzy as I began to lose tons of blood. Caleb was delivered but I was in rough shape. They reattached my cervix, gave me 2 blood transfusions and separated us because of our separate issues.

Since Caleb was delivered so early his lungs were not yet developed. The first few nights he had a lot of complications and they were unsure if he would even survive, but thankfully The Lord had plans for that boy and he pulled through. 

He had to stay in the NICU for a while, but we were able to hold and love him through this time. 

Because of all of these complications we were unsure if I would be able to have any more biological children until I became pregnant again when Caleb was only 11 months old. We were nervous but ecstatic at the same time, after all we both wanted a big family. Unfortunately, at 10 weeks I miscarried. We were sad but hopeful that we could have more... After trying for a number of years I have not even had another miscarriage. We both know that Gods plan is better than ours and are so thankful for not allowing me to get pregnant because as my sister in law says "God gives the best gifts" and both of our kids are truly some of the best gifts God has given to us! 

So that is the story of my "why" and I wouldn't change it for anything.